Daily Archives: 11 November, 2014

life’s just too damn short…

Don’t you agree, Reader? Life is just too short. Too damn short. Too short for long lines. Too short for stupid arguments with the people you love (though they are bound to happen…). There’s just not enough time.

There aren’t enough hours in the day. I have often thought this to myself, especially over the last several months. I don’t know where my days go I am so busy sometimes. I wish I could stop time, get things done, and then start it back up again and let the hours trickle away with just a smidgen less stress than I had in the “moment” before. But alas, it’s just not possible.

You know what else life is too short for? For closed-mindedness. I’ve hinted and mentioned several times that I would breach a line of conversation that would possibly uncomfortable for some (and honestly, myself included). To say it out loud, or in this case, write it in the permanent ink of the internet, makes it “un-take back-able. ” It’s out there for people to judge and hate or rejoice in and support. I’m afraid of the former. Of the judgement.

I think the reason I haven’t “publicly” admitted, spoken, or written concerning what I’m about to expel is because I don’t want to hear the disappointment of the people I love. I don’t want to hear them ask me how I could think or feel such things. How I could “abandon the truth,” as some of my loved ones have so poetically put it in the past. How could I hurt these people whom I love and have no intention to disappoint? Or the friends with whom I used to share a deep sincerity for religion and spirituality?

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