Monthly Archives: December 2014

i’m a girl… but apparently also a woman…

You may remember that a few weeks ago, I had a pivotal moment where I realized that I’m in my late-20s. It was as if, all of a sudden, things came crashing in on me and I realized that 30 is just around the bend. And that “Thirty Before 30” list on the Life List? Yeah. Time’s running out.

While I am well aware of the fact that I’m getting older, that the edges of my eyes are beginning to show the fine wrinkles of my lifetime of laughter, and that my face is sprouting annoying tiny hairs that require removal, I can’t pinpoint the exact moment I felt like a “woman” instead of just a “girl.” I can tell you, however, that I realized my own “womanhood” over a series of moments throughout this year.

It’s kind of weird to realize you’re not just another “girl” and that you actually qualify as a full-grown woman. The other morning, I was standing in the shower thinking to myself, “I’m not a girl. I’m a legit woman now. I’m a lay-DEEE.” I don’t know where it came from, but in that moment while washing the conditioner out of my hair, I knew I wasn’t just a girl anymore.

Frankly, my year of freedom and newfound appreciation for casual sex also made me feel like an actual woman. You might feel like this is too much information, but I think I speak for all women when I say that attention from someone you’re attracted to (or, at the very least, is attracted to you) makes you feel pretty freaking awesome. Sexy, even. Being desired is a good feeling.

Or the moment I paid off an $800 credit card balance last month that I’ve been carrying for a few years. I felt like a “real adult” fixing mistakes I had made as a stupid “young adult.” I was a woman making up for my girlish financial irresponsibility.

Regardless of exactly when it happened, I’m pretty sure it’s safe to say that it happened sometime this year. I’m a real-life grown-up. An adult. An independent WOMAN. And may I say, hear me roar.

*This post was written in response to WordPress’s The Daily Post: All Grown Up.

Christmas is over… so it’s time for a new list!…

Merry belated Christmas, Reader!

Remember when I said I was going to stay active and write at least once a week after being so damn good about writing almost every day during NaBloPoMo?

Yeah. Me too.

And then remember how I didn’t do that?

Yeah… Me too.

Typical me. But in my defense, I have been crazy, CRAY-ZEEEE busy. Teaching has been busy, planning for extra classes next month has kept me busy, and catching up on “Homeland” and “The Americans” has been a major life priority. (And I’ve still got three episodes to go on “The Americans,” so don’t ruin it for me.)

I also finished a couple of books since we last talked, albeit short ones…

Also, I’ve been avoiding you because I haven’t “felt” like writing – A.K.A. I haven’t wanted to take the time to sit and think about things. (Which is stupid, because when I sit down, things just sort of start to fill up the page like word vomit. I have no excuses…)

And maybe, most importantly of all, I have been thinking about my intentions for next year… I started writing about them several weeks ago, but now that we’re a mere three days away from a new year, it’s time to crack down and get serious about that business.

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